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只 有一个第三者知道她与卡卢仁波切间的这种关系——一个侍从喇嘛——这个喇嘛也曾在Campbell所形容并参与的那种一女多男西藏密宗双身共修关系中与她 发生过性行为。 「好几年过后,我才醒悟到就我当时所被侵犯与利用到的程度来说,那早已构成是一种对性的剥削与糟蹋了。就年代上来说,坦特罗密教这种双身修法要比正统佛教 (显教)还来的早。而这种思想的来源则可远溯自古代印度教某些教徒所深信的——「在交媾当中男性若能保持精液不漏失,就能增强性爱快感并且延年益寿」。喇 嘛教(喇嘛教)以此为基础,甚至更进一步发展成深信「若将情欲导入修行当中,而非一味排斥情欲」,将可以让修行人加速到达所谓开悟的境界!这种将情欲导入 修行中的方法,在喇嘛教中被视为极端危险而又极端有效,可以让修行人有机会在短短的一世中证悟成道,即身成佛。
Onlyone other person knew of the relationship - a second monk - with whomshe took part in what she described as a polyandrous Tibetanstylerelationship. "It was some years before I realised that the extent towhich I had been taken advantage of constituted a kind ofabuse".The practice of Tantric sex is more ancient than Buddhism. Theidea goes back to the ancient Hindus who believed that the retention ofsemen during intercourse increased sexual pleasure and made men livelonger. The Tibetan Buddhists developed the belief that enlightenmentcould beaccelerated by the decision "to enlist the passions in one`s religiouspractice, rather than to avoid them". The stategy is consideredextremely risky yet so efficacious that it could lead to enligthenmentin one lifetime.
资历浅地位低的喇嘛因为有所受限而只能在冥想当中以观想的方式进行这种男女双身修法,但是正如Campbell书中所陈述的,那些号称「大师」的高层喇嘛 则自认已经达到能够进行真正的男女合体双修而不被情欲污染的境界,在西藏所谓的密续(※译注:特指密宗喇嘛自创的经典,与显教经论不同)中,详细地解说了 这些号称可以控制男性精液能量流动的瑜珈呼吸控制法与其它修行法。所有这些方法的主要目的不外乎「将精液能量(※译注:意为阳性或男性能量,就外在而言, 即表现为男性物质精液。一般人但依常识亦知不可能将精液转移至脊柱乃至头部中!)沿着脊柱往上引导到头部」。一位修行者如果累积越多的男性能量在头部,就 越被视为在智能与心灵上越优秀强壮。
Monksof a lower status confined themselves to visualising an imaginarysexual relationship during meditation. But, her book sets out, the"masters" reach a point where they decide that they can engage in sexwithout being tainted by it. The instructions in the so -called"secret" texts spell out the methods which enable the man to controlthe flow of semen through yogic breath control and other practices. Theidea is to "drive the semen upwards, along the spine, and into thehead". The more semen in a man`s head, the stronger intellectually and spiritually he is thought to be.
「『一般性行为的倒行逆施』恰足以一语道破密宗双身修法中男女双方的相对关系与地位。」
"The reverse of ordinary sex expresses the relative status of the male and female within the ritual."
此外,在保持自己精液不漏失的情况下,男性甚至还可以藉由吸取双修女伴的淫液而获得额外的精气能量。这种「一般性行为的倒行逆施」,June Campbell说:「正足以说明双身仪轨中男女双方的相对关系地位,因为它清楚表明力量是从女方身上流失到男方的。」(※译注:之所以称为「一般性行为 的倒行逆施」是因为在一般性行为当中,男方最终必将射精漏失精液,亦即所谓损失精气能量!然而密宗双身修法却「倒行逆施」,标榜精液可以不漏失,甚至还能 反向逆引此一男性精液能量上传至头部!)
Morethan that, he is said to gain additional strength from absorbing thewoman`s sexual fluids at the same time as withholding his own. This"reverse of ordinary sex", said June Campbell, "expresses the relativestatus of the male and female within the ritual, for it signals the power flowing from the woman to the man".
这种双修法中男女地位的失衡是因为喇嘛大师们必定会坚持与他们进行双修的「空行母」严守秘密——其目的不过在于让喇嘛们可以完全掌握这些双修的女伴——而 更形恶化。 JuneCampbell说:「这本书出版以来,我收到不少从世界各地曾遭受相同甚至更恶劣待遇的女性所寄来的信件。」
Theimbalance is underscored by the insistence by such guru-lamas thattheir sexual consorts must remain secret, allowing the lamas tomaintain control over the women. "Since the book was published, I`vehad letters from women all over the world with similar and worse experiences".
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那么到底是什么原因让她继续待在卡卢仁波切身旁将近三年之久呢?「个人的威望与地位!」这些与喇嘛上师进行双修的女性相信她们自己是特别而且是神圣的!( ※译注: 因为只有她们能与「神圣尊贵」的喇嘛上师们进行秘密双修,别的女人不能!)她们相信自己正踏入一个神圣的领域。这种神圣领域的踏入将为自己的来世带来好 运,而为了踏入这个神圣领域而与喇嘛上师们裸体进行双修则是对自己信仰忠诚与否的一种考验!这种宗教信仰、性、权力与秘密的混合能够产生一种威力庞大的效 应。结果正是造成一种让人进退两难的精神勒索情况,恰如另一个西藏喇嘛Beru Kyhentze Rinpoch所说的:「如果你自己上师的举止看起来不像一个觉悟者应有的行为,而你又觉得在这种情形下把他视为是一尊佛实在是很假道学的话,那么你应该 记住你自己的想法是不足凭恃的,而你所看到自己上师所犯的那些明显过失很可能正是你自己紊乱不过的心灵所显现的倒影罢了……(要知道)如果你的上师以一种 完美的状态表现举止时,他对你而言将成为遥不可及,而你也将无法与他亲近乃至沟通。所以啊,你的上师之所以表现出种种明显过失其实是出于大慈悲心……他其 实是在为你显现你自己的过失啊!」
Sowhy did she stay for almost three years? "Personal prestige. The womenbelieve that they too are special and holy. They are entering sacredspace. It produces good karma for future lives, an is a test of faith".The combination of religion,sex, power and secrecy can have a potent effect. It creates the Catch22 of psychological blackmail set out in the words of another lama,Beru Kyhentze Rinpoche: "If your guru acts in a seemingly unenlightenedmanner and you feel it would be hypocriticalto think him a Buddha, you should remember that your own opinions areunreliable and the apparent faults you see may only be a reflection ofyour own deluded state of mind...If your guru acted in a completelyperfect manner he would be inaccessible andyou would be able to relate to him. It is therefore out of your Guru`sgreat compassion that he may show apparent flaws... He ist mirroringyour own faults".
这种精神压力对于那些「空行母」来说,通常因为她们必须发下毒誓保证决不泄漏与上师裸体双修的秘密而随之加强,就JuneCampbell而言,她就曾被 告知如果违誓泄漏她与上师进行裸体双修的秘密的话,「疯狂,灾难甚至死亡」将可能随之降临于她身上!「我被告知说,与我进行双修的卡卢仁波切,在上一辈子 里有个情妇带给他一些麻烦,为了除掉她,他就念咒施术让那位情妇生病乃至最后病重死亡!」
Thepsychological pressure ist often increased by making the woman swearvows of secrecy. In addition June Campbell was told that "madness,trouble or even death" could follow if she did not keep silent. "I wastold that in a previous life the lama Iwas involved with had had a mistress who caused him some trouble, andin order to get rid of her he cast a spell which caused her illnesslater resulting in her death.
「当我开始解开自己旧心结的同时,我也开始质疑起了一切事。」 她说。这两句话的意思是,她所怀疑的对象已不仅仅是某位喇嘛上师的行为是否正确?而是更进一步的,他的法义思想是否根本就是有问题?她更开始怀疑起整个坦 特罗密教的思想或许根本不过就是个大妄想,而密教无上瑜珈中的男女双修根本也就跟一般男女的裸体作爱毫无两样!她甚至还怀疑起所谓的觉悟到底是否存在?而 静坐冥想那些修行是否有真实意义?「我体认到如果我真的想要重新寻回自我的话,我一定得完全地、彻底地抛开以前所有的那一切!」
Thereare those Buddhists, like Martine Batchelor - who spent 10 years as aZen Buddhist nun in a Korean monastery and who now teaches at ScharphamCollege - who insist the religious techniques the Buddha taught can beseparated from the sexist, patriarchal and oppressive culture of manyBuddhist countries. But June Campbell is not convinced. "You have toask what is the relationship between belief and how a societystructures itself," she said. In Tibetanism, power lies in the hands ofmen who had often been traumatised by being removedfrom their mother at the age of two and taken to an all male monastery."Some were allowed visits from their mothers and sisters but always insecrecy - so that they came to associate women with what must behidden".
Butthere is more to it, she believes than that. Teaching at Sharpham lastweek she gave the students a whole range of material about differentkind of feminism - from the political to the psychotherapeutic. Shethen asked them how it relates to the fact that thereare no female Buddha images or to why in Tantric sex images the womanalways has her back to the viewer, or to why Buddhist women are told topray that they will be reborn into a male body in their next life -foronly in a man`s body can they attain full enlightenment.
"OnceI started unravelling my experiences, I began to question everything,"she said. That meant not just the actions of a particular guru But thevery idea of the guru. She began to wonder whether the Tantra was justa fantasy, and whether thereis really any difference between Tantric sex and ordinary sex. Shequestioned the very concept of enlightenment itself and the practice ofmeditiation. "I realised that in order to be myself I had to leave itall - completely an utterly."
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